Life is something else isn’t it?

One morning you can wake up ready to take on the day, happy, excited and confident. Another you can wake up feeling sad, lonely and depressed. What happens in our heads from the time they hit the pillow to the time our alarm clock rings?

I have these days, especially where I am alone. Sometimes I wake up and roll over and stretch the entire space of my empty bed with a big grin on my face… other times I roll over and think, damn I wish I had someone to cuddle right now. And there you go, sets the mood for your entire day.

Both moods motivate me. Each one tells me to get shit rolling! It’s either “you are fierce independent woman hear you roar!” Or… “You need to find yourself to be willing to share your life with another.” Either way I am focused on my personal growth.

For me being single has been a blessing. I may have done things backwards from the traditional sense, and I know that bothers people. However, reminding me that I am 31 and telling me it is time to get married is just plain silly. Would you like me to roll on down to the local Canadian Tire and pick a tall handsome handy man off a shelf, buy a ring and sign a piece of paper? Don’t you think if life was designed that way it would be HELLA boring?! Thank goodness we have to actually meet and date people or else you would be digging for that lost receipt real fast!… No returns, just store credit.. wompwomp.

How about I keep doing it my way, and I will keep you posted on the duds and the hopefuls that come my way 😉

So obviously this comment was thrown at me to wake up to this morning. I happened to glance at my phone when I woke up at 5am and it set me up for frustration and anger right away. It also came from someone I didn’t expect it from which made me throw my guard up as well. I am pretty bad for that. I trust everyone, so generally as a rule of thumb I get hurt once and a while.

I’m not mad at them, I’m mad at society for making them think this way. We have evolved so much over the short time humans have been on this earth, and we are still evolving! Not so long ago husbands were expected to be the bread winners and wives expected to look after the family and home. This clearly didn’t work for some of my fellow women so they burnt their pretty little bras and got out there! YOU GO GIRLS!

So why is there still this expectation of traditional ways?

I came to Calgary hoping to escape some of that negativity and pressure a small town holds. It is refreshing to be around people who are goal orientated to THEIR dreams not the societal expectations.

Before I even go on, if you are back in NB or any small town and are reading this with a baby on your lap and a pretty ring on your finger, I am NOT attacking you or putting down your lifestyle or choices or trying to be negative in any way. If you are happy, I am thrilled your life has been so good to you and YOUR dreams! Some of us just have a crumpled road map that lead us into unexpected adventures off the beaten trail… and don’t get me wrong, we all want what you have. Eventually.

The roadmap…

Always sitting on the seat beside me, telling me where I SHOULD go however it isn’t telling me that there is construction a mile ahead that will take me on a detour, nor does it tell me that old rest stop actually is now abandoned so I may just run out of gas and have to pee in the woods. Nope, it keeps me on my toes and keeps me rolling. Still looking ahead just with a little more looking around and exploring to be had. If there is a destination, I will get there eventually don’t worry 😉

So that’s that really. Everyone has a different path and some of us have better navigation skills then others. Your fancy GPS is way ahead of my coffee and whiskey stained map (that i’ll never be able to fold back to its original fold). But, that is OK with me. I’m happy, I’m healthy and I am living MY life the way it is supposed to be lived, and I know you are just KILLING yours! So I will be here when you need to escape and grab a shot of Jack or two, and I hope you will be there when I don’t know how to fold a cloth diaper or calm a crying man cold husband 😉

So rock on Wayne… and Party on Garth,

One life isn’t enough so make the best of it they way you want it to be!

xoxo

B